Spontaneous

Rent is one of my favorite movies/musicals (I've seen it two or three times at the theater, the movie countless times, have both the play and movie soundtracks, and can play some songs on the piano-I am obsessed). One of the many classic refrains from the score is

"There's only here, there's only this

Forget regret

Or life is yours to miss.

No other road,

No other way,

No day but today."

As you may or may not know, four of the eight main characters have AIDS, and a running theme throughout the play is learning to love without being afraid of baggage because everyone has it, and they are running out of time to live. Whenever I see a movie or book with this message, I always want to go out and have the best time of my life, tell my crush that I'm in love with him, travel around the world without any plans...but I never do. I find it difficult to live life to the fullest every single day, because I am not (luckily) threatened by death in any way. I want to listen to the moral of Rent, to be spontaneous and never be afraid, but life doesn't always work that way. I enjoy life, no doubt about it, but I also plan things...I leave things for the future, because I like counting on having a future. I don't know how to fully embrace this message when I have no excuse...how do you live only for today when you have responsibilities for tomorrow? I don't know.